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11:02 pm - Like this shit is important or something...
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| Wednesday, January 23rd, 2008
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2:39 pm
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Alright, so I'm going to give another update here. Wagner had a very bad accident. He severed the artery in his right arm, so they took some veins and stuff out of his leg and put them in his arm. He was in the hospital for about a week. Nearly killed me it did. So, all our construction work was froze. We lost quite a bit of work and I got a job waiting tables at a Brazillian Steakhouse. It wasn't too bad, but there was a bad tip split so I wasn't making the money that I needed to make because Wagner wasn't able to work for about a month and a half after he got out of the hospital. Even after he got better it's winter and we couldn't find any work for him. But, being the resourceful person that I am I got in good with the owners. They opened a new restaraunt right off Bourbon Street and I get to keep my own tips so I'm doing better now. Wagner just started painting a house too so hopefully things keep going up. I no longer have a car so I'm walking now, but I'm losing weight so it's not so bad. I'm a sexy motha! Hahaha. Anyways, thats that. I'm still down here in the big N O. I still don't like it all that much, but my mother might come down and see if she likes it here. That would make things nicer to have my mother here. Sometimes I feel like I'll work for the rest of my life just to keep renting the same house, having a piece of shit -if any- car, paying for lights and a phone. I need to learn how to save money. We are REALLY bad about spending EVERYTHING. But, to hell with it I guess. I'm still living.
current mood:  horny
current music: Everybodies Talkin - Harry Nilsson
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| Monday, June 25th, 2007
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3:29 pm - It's just a little hannahlee...
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Wow, it's been so long I'm not even sure if anyone would read this. I'm gonna post it anyways. Take this you freaks!
So, for the past year and a half I've been living in New Orleans, but lets back up a little bit. Right after my twenty first birthday I decided to take a hike... all the way to Florida. There I moved into an apartment complex that was all Brazillians. Like, I don't know, two of them could speak English. So, here I am, drinking my beer and smoking my cigarettes when I met the most beautiful man in the world. I couldn't talk to him though, except the language of beer. I then met his aunt who turned out to be a great person! She took me under her wing and introduced me to everyone. They were really all men, but that was fine with me. I must have went to about two hundred brazillian cook outs and tried and tried to learn. So I would ask Raquel.. como fala esse em portuegese. How do you say this in portuguese??? That was the first thing I learned. So, after asking that a million times I started learning things. Lets go back to the beautiful man now. I was still hanging out with him and of course going to 'visit' his apartment. I was learning a little bit so I could communicate a little more. In short I learned portuegese and he and I fell in love. Soooooooo....
We moved to New Orleans shortly after this and have been living there ever since. I hate it. It's dirty and ugly and no one has any pride in what they own. It's hot too. We opened a company and are making pretty good money. Got a nice little house and a cat. We got married! It was beautiful. I'm ready to have a baby, so we try and try and try some more. I have a problem with my ovaries though so I don't know how good it will work. We have been seriously talking about putting a house on my land in NC. We cant make the same money here, but boy do I know that money isn't everything. In general I'm very happy these days, but I don't really like the location we live in. Although we are only about five minutes from Bourbon St!! Mardi Gras was nice both years so far. I don't know......
Alright, thats the update. I love you all very much and miss you. My computer was stolen down in ol New Orleans, so I will be forced to buy a new one soon. Maybe I'll get the internet, but I don't have much time for it now. Be safe and BE HAPPY!
current mood:  lazy
current music: Metamofose Ambulante - Raul Seixas
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| Sunday, March 28th, 2004
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12:13 pm
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| Thursday, March 25th, 2004
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8:13 pm
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This girl I know needs some shelter
She don't believe anyone can help her
She's doing so much harm, doing so much damage
But you don't want to get involved
You tell her she can manage
And you can't change the way she feels
But you could put your arms around her
I know you want to live yourself
But could you forgive yourself
If you left her just the way
You found her
I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection
I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection
You're a boy and i'm a girl
But you know you can lean on me
And I don't have no fear
I'll take on any man here
Who says that's not the way it should be
I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection
I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection
She's a girl and you're a boy
Sometimes you look so small, look so small
You've got a baby of your own
When your baby's gone, she'll be the one
To catch you when you fall
I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection
I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection
You're a girl and i'm a boy
Sometimes you look so small, need some shelter
Just runnin' round and round, helter skelter
And I've leaned on me for years
Now you can lean on me
And that's more than love, that's the way it should be
Now I can't change the way you feel
But I can put my arms around you
That's just part of the deal
That's the way I feel
I'll put my arms around you
I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection
I stand in front of you
I'll take the force of the blow
Protection
You're a boy and i'm a girl
I love this song...
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| Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004
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8:21 am
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You are guided by the earth itself. People like you
are very rare. You are in tune with everything
around you. While you try to bring peace to the
world, you can sometimes create pain to those
around you. You generally don't take risks.
(Rate my test)
What force is your soul?
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This quiz could be accurate, but I think I might take risks from time to time. Maybe all the time. I liked the rest of it though, so I posted the results. You know you all do it too. Just post the ones you like. I don't know, I just found a link to this in D's journal. The results are posted above.
current mood:  geeky
current music: DJ Shadow and Mos Def - Six Days
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| Monday, March 22nd, 2004
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7:45 pm
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This is D and I at the beach. He's the really really really drunk one standing on the ocean. Look.. just look at how goofy that smile is. Kinda jesus like don't you think? This is the night before he got his DUI. Do you blame them for pulling him over????
And there I am standing on the beach thinking.. What the hell is going on here???
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4:02 pm
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I am sad...
"All my words come back to me in shades of mediocrity, like emptyness and harmony, I need someone to comfort me... "
current mood:  disappointed
current music: Simon and Garfunkel - Homeward bound
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| Friday, March 19th, 2004
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10:22 am
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I finally am ready to leave. I'm hoping this visit with my sister goes very good. I must admit I am a little worried about it, but the fact that D is gonna be there makes me feel a bit better. What I figure is the worse thing that can happen is I get to spend the weekend at the beach with good people. Cause D IS good people. I really really want to see my sister and Colby though. I will just do a 'hello i am in town' deal. If she wants to come to me, thats fine, or I'll come to her. Whatever will work. Fine by me. Just be my sister... be glad to see me. I feel like I should take D a gift. Like a marble or something. Anyways, I think I'm feeling very prepared, but I'm sure I'll forget something I find to be very important.
Wish D and I luck on the meeting with the sister. THE SISTER. It just sounds scary doesnt it. *scary music here* Alright, this person used to/ probably still does love me. It shouldn't be that bad. It, infact, will NOT be bad.
OOOOOGA BOOOOGA!
current mood:  chipper
current music: Peaches - Fuck The Pain Away
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12:44 am
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I'm leavin to see my lil D loc tomorrow! It's going to be wonderful. Things are happening, things are different. Take your chairs ladies and gentleman, the show is about to start.*insert applause here* Oh yeah, we're gonna party, we're gonna LAUGH. We're gonna LAUGH at YOU too! I'm ready for this summer. I'm gonna hit a festival or two. Perhaps three or four. And flowers! I'm going to be planting lots of flowers this year.
This is life... LIVE IT!
current mood:  confused
current music: Rap - Mase - Looking At Me
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| Tuesday, March 16th, 2004
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1:30 am
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I've been around for you
Been up and down for you
But I just can't get any relief
I've swallowed my pride for you
Lived and lied for you
But you still make me feel like a thief
You got me stealin' your love away
'Cause you never give it
Peeling the years away
And we can't relive it
Oh, I make you laugh
And you make me cry
I believe it's time for me to fly
You said we'd work it out
You said that you had no doubt
That deep down we were really in love
Oh, but I'm tired of holding on
To a feeling I know is gone
I do believe that I've had enough
I've had enough of the falseness
Of a worn out relation
Enough of the jealousy
And the intoleration
Oh, I make you laugh
And you make me cry
I believe it's time for me to fly
(Time for me to fly)
Oh, I've got to set myself free
(Time for me to fly)
That's just how it's got to be
I know it hurts to say goodbye
But it's time for me to fly
(Fly)
Oooooooooooo, baby
Oh, don't you know it's...
It's time for me to fly
I LOVE this song so very much. I forget I like it until i listen to it. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!
current music: REO Speedwagon - Time For Me To Fly
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| Monday, March 15th, 2004
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7:13 am
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just looking for grass for a party. whereare u from?
<{Sleep}> im in a mental institution
ah okay man .. u better take a hit later nro
<{Sleep}> will you come break me out?
no dude
just sleep bro
<{Sleep}> but man.. let me explain.. the cia killed my mother and my father.. and the fbi.. killed my brothers and my sister
<{Sleep}> if i send you a letter.. will you send it to the news papers?
<{Sleep}> i think i could bust them wide open
dude me 2. cia killed my family ur not alone
<{Sleep}> so.. will you help me?? they wont let me send letters out.. and im blocked on this computer.. man.. ive exhausted all efforts.. how can i tell everyone now??
dude buy a pigeon. go low tech
<{Sleep}> do you think they would take me seriously if i sent a pigeon in?
yeah dude. i think dat would be a good idea. just get a trained 1
<{Sleep}> i dont know if they'll let me have a pigeon here
<{Sleep}> WAIT A FUCKIN MINUTE MAN
No such nick/channel
I was about to launch into the whole 'I bet you are one of them. You're on their side arent you????' thing when he abruptly left. This was perhaps the best conversation I've had on IRC. Atleast the best goof off conversation I've had. This guy kicks so much ass!! LMAO!
current mood:  exhausted
current music: Shaun Colvin - Sunny Came Home
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| Sunday, March 14th, 2004
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3:53 pm
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Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
I need a breath taking moment....
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| Wednesday, March 10th, 2004
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4:26 pm
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This today is one of the best today's I can remember having at work. It all started with this kind man that made my day. I hope he knows how much happiness he brought me. It was such a simple thing too, but it was lovely! We were working in the middle of a lane today, which made it a tid bit dangerous, but you could make it around us on both sides. We were right at a stop sign. So, dood pulls off the side of the road and I'm watching him thinking 'man this is a terrible parking job.' So he pops out and starts walking towards me. He says..." You look lonely. Here, I hope this cheers you up a bit." He then hands me a pepsi and a candy bar!!!! I smiled so big and thanked him and then he was gone. :) :) Beautiful people do still exist!
Next, Dad had me crackin up. This is how it went....
Me: Man dad, these people probably think I'm crazy, just sittin on a man hole lid in the middle of the road.
Dad: Maybe they think you are having a sit in, protesting something.
Me: YES! The mistreatment of man holes! They have rights too and you people just run them over like they aren't even here!
Dad: Man holes have a HEART! Thats why they are called MAN holes, not just holes or street holes. SAVE THE MAN HOLES!
LMAO!! You guys, I love my dad muchly!
Then... a car full of doods come rollin by yelling, "Take your pants off!!!"
Okay, so... I'm on my knees kinda leaning my head into the man hole talking to dad and these two doods go by and wolf whistle. Hehe.
To end a hilarious day, a random guy stops at this stop sign and he says.. "Is that all you have to do?" And I'm like.. yeah, sure is. So he asks me if I need anything from the store. I say no, but that you, I appreciate it. So then... he says.. "Well, wanna smoke a joint?" I'm like.. HELL YEAH. So he says he's gonna run to the store and he'll be right back. And back he came. Man, that was so cool. LOL
So, all together, this day has been strange/funny/great! I got some sun on my face too! It was too chilly to take my sweatshirt off though. It's supposed to rain like crazy tomorrow from what I saw on the weather channel this morning. Blah blah blah. It snowed a bit today. Just flurries though. You knew when it was going to start because the temperature would drop about ten degrees in about one minute. Then it would start snowing and just as sudden as it started, it would stop. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... tis life.
W0rd to your mother!
current mood:  amused
current music: Maroon 5 - This Love
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| Tuesday, March 9th, 2004
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4:25 pm
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| Monday, March 8th, 2004
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2:49 pm
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Man..thank God for good friends. I do believe that I know some of the best people in the world. You all make me smile, make me laugh, make me care and sometimes I think you could make me cry. Which is a hard thing to do and can be bad.. OR it can be so good. I'm making this entry right now, even though I can't post it yet. We've had some issues with wind and I'm not getting enough power through my modem because of this, so says my internet provider. It's 5 am and I'm ready to head off to work. Eeek! It's cold out there this morning and, like I said, the wind is craaazy. I think we are supposed to get some rain today and tomorrow, which means I will be soaking wet by the end of the day. We already decided we will get 40 hours in this week no matter what. So, rain rain go away come again another day....
I made the mistake of going to sleep to early yesterday and I've been up since around 3 am. By the end of today I'm going to be exhausted. I finished one of the books I was reading, but I had another one started already. Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil is such a freekin funny book. It makes me want to move to Savannah and be a southern lady. Also, I want to have parties with ol dood down the street! Hehe. I have this habit of reading two books at once, so I think I will start Conversations with God soon. I've read this book many times, but I miss something everytime and catch it on the next read. So, I'm sure my journal will be experiencing blurbs from this book. LOL
Yesterday was a beautiful day. I was still awake when the sun came up and I walked outside several times. I'm excited to hear the birds each moring. Spring is almost here! Oh you silly people! I am so happy these days! Muahahahahahahaha, perma grin, I swear! I'm actually happy to get back to work, although it would make it much better if the sun was out.
I miss my lil mama though. She was just here one week ago, but it feels like SOOOOOOOOO long ago. Talk about makin a woman happy! And maybe I'm crazy, crazy but it's true. And I know you can save me, no one else can save me now but you! As long as the wheels are turnin, as long as the fires are burnin, as long as your prayers are comin true... you better believe it, that I would do anything for love. And I'll never do it better than I do it with you. Okay, I'm gettin off this Meatloaf kick now. LOL That's funny. Okay... HAHA.. will you hose me down with holy water if I get too hot?? :P
I'm going to kill my modem, oh yes, kill it til it's dead. Oudieclay, I ovelay ouyay. Ouyay akemay emay osay appyhay. Ouyay uresay oday avehay a errypray outhmay! ;) ;)
Somedays I just pray to the God of sex and drums and rock n roll....
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| Saturday, March 6th, 2004
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10:39 pm
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If you were the woman and I was the man
would I send you yellow roses
would I dare to kiss your hand?
In the morning would I caress you
as the wind caresses the sand,
if you were the woman and I was the man?
If I was the heart and you were the head
would you think me very foolish
if one day I decided to shed
these walls that surround me
just to see where these feelings led,
if I was the heart and you were the head?
If I was the woman and you were the man
would I laugh if you came to me
with your heart in your hand
and said, 'I offer you this freely
and will give you all that I can
because you are the woman
and I am the man?'
This song is so wonderful! Anyways, I love you all very much and will make a proper entry later, perhaps, tonight.
current mood: (not a choice) vibrant
current music: Cowboy Junkies - If You Were The Woman (live Feat John Prine)
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3:57 pm
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a_lesson_in_dreaming: ack.. i feel as if i should get out and do something... this is saturday right?
naked_vagina2004: yepper
naked_vagina2004: go shake yer bum at people!!
naked_vagina2004: shake it!!!
a_lesson_in_dreaming: lol.. dammit.. i need something NEW to do
naked_vagina2004: ohhhh
naked_vagina2004: wll up here we club baby seals.. but i dont think you got them down there
a_lesson_in_dreaming: ohhhhhhh do you really?
naked_vagina2004: they are viscious bastards! they kill school children
naked_vagina2004: they lay in the bushes in wait, then spring forth
naked_vagina2004: its ugly i tells you
naked_vagina2004: UGLY!!
a_lesson_in_dreaming: lmao
a_lesson_in_dreaming: i dont buy it
naked_vagina2004: so the beatin is a neccessary evil
naked_vagina2004: you could throw rocks at old peopel?
a_lesson_in_dreaming: nah.. i did that last weekend
current mood: relaxed
current music: Sarah McLaughlin - Possession
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| Tuesday, March 2nd, 2004
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10:36 pm
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And then you're someone you are not.... :(
The fog rolled in
and that was all..
all that was left
I said to you
only weak people
say goodbye
You asked what
strong people said
I don't know..
I've never been strong....
Ahhh, once again, I am lonely. Too much.. too much of nothing. We danced. It was the best dance. Ever. Then...now... I said goodbye.
Sideways-- Santana
You know it isn't easy
For these thoughts here to leave me
There are no words to describe it
In french or english
Cause diamonds they fade
And flowers they bloom
And I'm telling you
That these feelings won't go away
They've been knockin me sideways
They've been knockin me out litely
Whenever you come around me
These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin me sideways
I keep thinking in a moment that
Time will take them away
But these feelings won't go away
current mood: crushed
current music: Hedwig and the Angry Inch - Wicked Little Town (Hedwig Version)
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